*sighs*

Yes I know, I normally name my posts after a song, give you a cute picture of the princess and even some song lyrics but today I just need to rant. (which I haven't here in awhile). I Guess my hugest issue right now is that we are moving. I mean I'm glad to be moving and I'm even more excited about the oppourtunity to get new furniture etc but its sad. Its another ending for us. I just wish we could find a house that we could grow into and not have to move anymore. This is the place where Alice Rose had her first christmas. Took her first steps. Said her first words and I am just so upset about leaving here that I can't handle it. I mean I understand that we can't stay here forever its just not possible but its still sad. I think maybe once we clean this place out I will run through and take a video of this place empty so down the road I can show Alice her first home. Where she took all of her firsts at. I mean is it stupid that I'm upset? Yeah probably but its like I dunno I'm lame I'm sure its just...I'm upset...and like I said its like I can't tell Randy because he'll be like "theres no room for us to stay here" and I will answer "thank you captain obvious" its just still sad.

He wants to move into a house. I want to move into a house. But unless we move closer to his work then it will be pointless because we will end up spending as much as we are now/later. I just wish that in this economy he could find a good job, decide he likes it and wants to keep it, so then I could finally settle down and not have to worry about the gas we are spending when hes driving "x" amount of miles to work. Right now in one day hes putting almost 100 miles on the car each day going back and forth to work. With Gas at almost $4 a gallon its just crazy for us not to move out to Bloomfield Hills because then its only a 10 minute walk for him to work.

I guess there are pros and cons to all of this. I just wish we could find a 3 or 4 bedroom house for cheap so all of this money we would be saving while living at dads could go into something that would be ours eventually. And we would never have to move again. The next baby would have all of their firsts in that house and I would beable to look back when they turn 18 and be like "you took your first steps right there" and smile and shed a small tear. You know like my mom did with us. *sighs* I just don't know what to do...

I just really wish someone actually read this blog because I could sure use some advice...