The Difference Is Jesus Loves You I Don't

"You say I should stay with you
That Jesus forgives you
You pray I will, but I won't
The difference is
Jesus loves you, I don't"
"I Don't" By Danielle Peck

I remember the day so vividly. I had been having a bad day at home but what else was new. I decided I wanted to go over to my best friend's house but he decided he wanted to hang out first which was fine by me. So we hung out for awhile, mostly just driving around and talking and listening to music which is what we did alot and if we were sick of driving around we would park in a parking lot and cuddle for a bit. We never really went to his house because the few times I had been there, needless to say he also did not have the greatest home life. His dad and brother were very kind but his stepmother was needless to say Psycho anyways I had been smiling because only the day before he had wrote in his blog on Myspace about how I was one of the best things that had ever happened to him. Him, being the first guy to write something like that about me, made me think that "hey maybe hes the one you've been looking for." Little did I know that I would be wrong about that. We hung out that night and then he took me home. We continued on in this fashion for awhile, enjoying each others company more and more each time until about 2 weeks later on what would be our 1 month anniversary, he told me he had cheated on me. A guy that I trusted with my life had cheated on me. And to make matters worse, he cheated on me with my best friend.
Gone were the days of kisses in the rain
Or knights in shining armor
Gone were the days of ripped pants
and sexy tattoos
However, their is a twist to this story. In the Fall of 2007 I saw him again at Macomb, now dating the girl he cheated on me with. I sat and "People Watched" them for about an hour silently laughing to myself about how they sat there the whole hour and never once did they say a kind word to each other. No special little glints in their eyes for each other or hidden kisses like I had once gotten from him. Only arguing.
A few days later I saw him watching Randy and I with that look to kill in his eyes and it only made me chuckle and kiss my future husband again.

Thing to Learn From This: Don't Fuck Up A Good Thing Because You May Regret It Later

Brightest Wishes and Darkest Dreams,
Love Always,
Raelin Brianna