Little Moments

"When she's layin' on my shoulder on the sofa in the dark
And about the time she falls asleep so does my right arm
And I want so bad to move it 'cause it's tinglin' and it's numb
But she looks so much like and angel that I don't wanna wake her up
Yeah I live for little moments
When she steals my heart again and doesn't even know it
Yeah I live for little moments like that"
"Little Moments" By Brad Paisley

As I work on planning my upcoming wedding I can't help but think about and giggle to myself what exactly it was that got me here. I remember it started the fall of 2005 when I saw a nerdy guy at school with the prettiest eyes and the cutest laugh. He played Magic the Gathering and video games as much as he could. He had a few close friends and made it seem to me that they were important to him. I immediately had a crush. So I was dating Mr. Abusive at the time but when he wasn't there I was often seen hanging around the nerdy boys table who I later found out was named Randy. I would stand there and hang out with him and his friends until the day I was dubbed "His Good Luck Charm" and I hugged him from behind and standing there behind him with my arms around his neck felt so right and so good I couldn't help but want to do it forever. We swapped numbers that day and he always tried to convince me to come over and hang out but I never did because I was afraid of letting my secret crush spill onto his shoes and then I would lose the person I considered to be my best friend by this time.
So I continued to date Mr. Abusive and I tried many a time to dump him but he wouldn't let me so I stayed. And then finally we were done and I enjoyed being single for a few months...trust me the peace was more comforting then being with him. I still had my feelings for the nerdy boy but he had stopped coming to the school. His friends had told me he dropped out.
It was a day in November of 2006 and he had come up to the school. I hadn't talked to him in months still because of the fear of him finding out that I was crushing on him. Finally, thanking God or Karma or whoever that I had worn a cute outfit that day, went up to him and leaned on his shoulder as he played Magic. I jokingly poked at him "So Guess What?" and he returned the "what?" and I answered "You're taking me out this weekend...." and he looked at me with those pretty eyes peering over his glasses and said "ok". Mind you this had only started as a kid around with your best friend kind of thing but it turned into something more.
That night we hung out and I had turned my head to look at him to say something and he had been trying to kiss me on the cheek but we actually kissed for the first time that night and I was done for.
And now a year and 2 months later...I'm still with him.
300 days from now...I'm going to marry him!
WOW!

Thing To Learn From This: The best thing for you is almost always the thing standing in front of you out of your reach but when the time comes something will give you a boost to make sure it all happens.

Brightest Wishes
And
Darkest Dreams,
Raelin Brianna