Almost Home

"Love is the place
Where you go when day is done
Love is in the face
Of the old and young
Love knows nothing of the wheel
Of aluminum and steel
Traveling down that gravel road
Almost home"
"Almost Home" By Mark Erelli

So I wonder what it will be like on the day I finally have a place to call home. A place where I can put my feet up on the coffee table and not get yelled at. A place where its not a big deal if there are a few dirty dishes in the sink for a few days. A place where I can finally feel safe.
I feel safe with Randy. That isn't hard to understand, know or tell according to the people around me...However, being here at his house has hardly been any of the "at home" feeling I've been looking for. To be honest I think his parents are making sure that I don't get "to comfortable" because then they think I will not leave. I wonder sometimes if they act the way they do because they do not like me. Granted they say they like me straight to my face but yet I wonder sometimes.
Tonight I was yelled at because I had not had the time in the last few days to clean out our fridge. I was told that if I did not clean it out I would be kicked out for a measly bowl of Mac and Cheese that I had forgotten to put tin foil over and it had hardened in the 3 days it had been in the fridge.
*sighs*
I can't wait till the day I find "home"

Things To Learn From This: Home isn't where your heart is, home is where you feel safe at.

Brightest Wishes
and
Darkest Dreams,
Raelin Brianna